Result is Out!

Alhamdulillah!
My cgpa drop, but insyaAllah I will still graduate with 1st class honors :)

As promised

I wanna talk about FINAL exam.
1st things 1st ~ Yeay! Exam is over!
dah basi actually, it was over on the 12th, last week.
However, only now I feel that it’s really over, fuh!

On January, the 5th
My first paper was the toughest among all. From the assignments, the critiques, the video session and the final exam! It has never been easy sebab lecturer selalu tak der. He is a busy person so student selalu terkapai2 sendiri. Nevermind that, I learned a lot, with friends and own efforts.

On January, the 6th
Major subject, pedagogy! Below dialogue was one of my answers when it asked me to apply role play strategy in class for ‘barter trade’ topic! Guess what! I didn’t do revision on that part! I wrongly spot the topic! Padan muke! Spot2 topic lagi!

Scenario & dialog that I created to describe what is barter trade and its benefits/setbacks.

A customer went to market to buy few supplies - milk, eggs, flour and biscuits. This is what happened at the counter;

Customer – I wanted to trade this (milk) with my brand new shirt.
Cashier – how come? This is expensive, we must milk so many cows to get this.
Customer – ok then, let me trade the eggs, with 2 brand new shirts.
Cashier – cannot, we have to raise so many chickens to get the eggs.
Customer – never mind! Let me trade 3 brand new shirts with the flour then!
Cashier – haiya mr!! Still cannot, we must grind so many grains to produce this.
Plus, do you know something?
Customer – what?
Cashier – this (biscuits), is the most expensive item among others!
Customer – why la amoi?
Cashier – because we need milk, eggs and flour to make this!
Customer – speechless :p

What do you think about my answer? I got this idea after made 3 times alteration. (3 different stories, each I assumed can’t show the meaning, purposes and setbacks), thank you to mr. correction tape that I bought from popular.

Why on earth you must asked students to come out with lesson plan and activities? It took me 40minutes to finish 4 pages lesson plan. Grrr! Even a real teacher must have text book whenever they plan for their P&P. There are other ways to test students’ understanding on LP and P&P but definitely not during the exam!


On January, the 9th
Another minor paper, insyaAllah 

On January, The 11th
Harghhhhh! I wanted to scream out loud! But the truth was, I cried over my FA lecturer right after the exam. I was dem frustrated because I prepared for it. What happened was I got panicked. After recited doa I straight away opened the question paper and all of sudden my formulas were all gone! My brain got all jumble up and I can’t think straight. Obviously what happened to me was the panicked attack. Therefore, I lost my concentration and focus for almost 3 hours. Yeah! Now we can predict my result pretty well! I will definitely drop my beautiful CGPA 

On January, the 12th
My lecturer advised me to focus on MA. Hubby told me to practically write down all the formulas on the paper before started to answer the questions. He convinced me, it is ok to spent 10 – 15 minutes rather than loss every opportunity to get marks. And again, after recited doa, I did what I’m being told. I didn’t open the question paper, I wrote every possible formula that I remember.

Alhamdulillah, hubby was rite. Madam was rite too. I found myself more relax and whenever I got stressed out, burnt out to answer, I referred to those formulas that I wrote before.

Whenever I asked hubby why is that I was so careless with FA, and I asked him why God let me made those silly mistakes, hubby told me to redha. I personally don’t have the correct answer for it, but after sometimes I realized that it can happen to everyone. It taught me to bend down my panic disorder, try to overcome it whenever I can because this diseases is not tolerable and most probably I’ll suffer from the consequences.

Well, there’s a lot to learn from mistakes I made. InsyaAllah I will redha for now, but definitely I will cry again after the result is out. February, please don’t come and please don't give me a broken heart .

Mode ~ my heart beat so fast rite now.. they must be marking my papers.

Genap Seminggu!

Heheh.. genap seminggu tak buka blog, blog walking pun tak, tak der masa sepicing pun nak berblog. Cam ner nak berblog kalau guna 2/3 windows plus 10 tabs each! sib baik ms lappy kuat :)

Alhamdulillah... last week worried with financial account assignment, alhamdulillah balance juga my account ngam2 b4 the time due. Huh! berpeluh you!

Lepas tu busy plak ngan video session for individual counseling, alhamdulillah, setelah bertungkus lumus ngan pelbagai masalah, kejap lagi boleh la hantar vdeo tu. Buat vdeo tu tak la teruk sangat kot. Trimas byk2 kat CTB Azrin sebab banyakkkk sangat tolong menjayakan sesi counseling tu :) Tanpa azrin, pening juga kami nak merakam.

Tapi yg teruk sekali menghabiskan assingment interventions tu, ada 5 interventions kena wat report plus 1 kritik on the intervention. Kritik? This is my pes time buat krtitk. Adoi, sayang betul buat keje last minutes, the outcomes meme la tak berapa nak gempak, rasenya mcm byk benda lagi nak letak tapi tak sempat. Gempak tak gempak, i produced 50pages for the report.

Will be having exam starting 5th January - 12th January 2012.
5th Jan - Individual Counseling
6th Jan - Pedagogy in Commerce
9th Jan - Multicultural Counseling
11th Jan - Fianancial Accounting
12th Jan - Managerial Accounting

Kijam kan, accounting paper tak der gap langsung! oh dugaan! insyaAllah dipermudahkan semuanya nanti :) Wish me luck n doa2kan semuanye berjalan lancar for me yer :)

Mode ~ ngantok sakan!

24 hours submission!

Hah! got last minutes assignment for FA today! very the thrill, control acc + ledger + trial balance. Am still working on my ledger, berdarah2 dah mata n idong nia :p Still can't imagine how am going to answer exam. The steps punyala panjang! Semoga Allah permudahkan!

Mode - tatau kul bapa nak tdo, cancel plan baking malam ni :(

Maladaptive Behavior vs Karipap

This is one of the topic that we talked about during our group discussion yesterday. Arghhh... it was such a long day when we kept on discussing and realized it already 7pm and we decided to wrapp out everything although there's a lot of things are in vague.

Thank you to counselor Yap for explaining those weird counseling terms and theories. Thanks to my friend, counselor to be (CTB) Arina for invited me to join the discussion. It was fun and awesome to share knowledge like that, but all I did was just lend my ear to the details since this is my minor paper and am been so blurred about the subject. I believe I need to stop procrastinate and start reading all the kitabs from here and there, so that I could answer the final exam later :p

1st thing 1st... what is maladaptive behavior (MAB)? Well, through our discussion yesterday what i can conclude, MAB is types of behaviors that hinder an individual to adjust to some circumstances. This behavior may reduce one's worries, however it may not able to solve problems/situation. In some cases, it might worsen the situation because behavior chosen is non productive or dysfunctional. One might stay away from the situation but it totally won't improve the situation. Huhu, ble paham ke? Tak per2.. lepas ni kita kasik example yer...

Haha, that definition is definitely act only as token for me, being able to memorize those facts is good enough ! that's mean I paid attention okeh!

Ok2, let's continue with a simple example that would help you to understand and help me to retain the details yer.

Oh! this is a good one, example.... I'll be having my final semester exam in 2 weeks time, at the same time, I have a lots in my mind. A lots and lots in my hands as well. I supposed to start with my assignment @9am this morning but my thought doesn't allow me working things rite. For some reasons, what we called 'unrealistic fears' make me believe that I won't be able to complete all my tasks. My brain keep on interpreting wrong chemical reactions, thus my synapses keep on transmitting wrong information between neurons. This morning, my worries had transformed into stress therefore that's the reason of me getting nausea and dizziness. Do I need some drugs to stop those pain message from getting into my brain?

Nah! I decided to deviate my attention to other things for a while, then I remembered my inti karipap in the fridge.. I guess since I can't focus to my study and am having really bad headache, why not I settle the karipap dulu kan.

Here we go, my 1st maladaptive behavior for today! I snub the notes and headed to the kitchen and start to touch my utensils and ingredients :p, of course I started kneaded the flour for my karipap pastry ^.^. Hahah.. the feeling is absolutely heaven!

I got about 30 pcs karipap alltogether and I kept the remaining inti into the freezer. I konon2 had utilized my 3 hours time (lama pasal I terhegeh2 kelim the edges larr). Happy! I fried 5 pcs and ate them for my breakfast! The pastry was nice, just the way I like, very crisp! There you go, healing therapy for me :)

Then am putting everything here so that we can learn together about maladaptive behavior. I guess, it is not wrong to utilize another 1 hour to do some blog, plus this information is relevant for final exam :p

So do u get what maladaptive behavior is all about peeps? n how many hours I have procrastinated till now ^.^

Mode ~ gimme another half an hour to take nap yah!

Not So Speechless After All

And yet, yesterday was a productive day for me :) Other than having our quality family time ~ kids with online games (ultraman, pikachu, sonic, mario and the list goes longer ) hubby with online anime (Bleach, Dragon Ball, Naruto, Gundam and the list goes even loooonger cause all these series came out with different seasons + episodes = hundreds of them or maybe thousands, who knows) and me with korean dramas for sure (told u, very productive :p)

However, I managed to complete 2 assignments + 2 exercises for MA (Managerial Accounting).


Sambil buat esemen tu, rasanyer few times I have to stop to prepare dinner for the kids and hubby heheh...

Tapi kan, actually I started the assignment right after watching 2 movies with hubby. It almost 5pm if am not mistaken. Haha, memula ingat nak nengok 1 movie jer titled 'The Thing'.

Biasala, if we dah start watch 1 movie, mesti jadi so addicted nak watch another one, so we continue with 'FrightNight' pulak. Hahah!

Hah! Lupa, Saturday nite tu we watched Breaking Dawn Pt 1 as well. I really like the ending although the beginning tu naik bosan la plak sebab byk sgt adegan bosan hurm!

Ha, pas tu I continue with my assignments till 12am sambil2 masak inti karipap. I thought this morning boleh la goreng karipap for the boys, unfortunately I only slept around 4am last nite. I can't afford wake up at 5am nak menggentil the karipap pastry pulak.

Oh, napa I slept so late? Cause am looking for counseling journals/articles and I still can't find the best and helpful article for my minor paper. I have another 15 pages critiques to write, 15-20 pages theories to compare n summarize plus 40mins - 1hour intervention video recording which haven't been done.

More, I have 3 more FA (Financial Accounting) assignments must be submitted by this Wednesday.

Am having problem with 1 minor paper that I totally dun understand (mcamana nak katam all the kitab in 2 weeks time)

Mode ~ Exam is Around the Corner!

I've Changed!

I am in my 2nd year of 3 year degree :) this semester has come to the end, my friends and I are now kelam kelibut finishing our assignments yang berlambak2 tu. In the beginning of semester, I have promised myself, when December starts, I have to put my focus on studying, al maklum la, am taking 2 accounting subject this semester. Huhu, handal sangat ke? To tell u the truth, am really in the middle of chaos. It’s really not cool to memorize all the accounting steps. But hey! am trying hard to coping with it. Hope I can still maintain the good result ^.^.

Back to my story, am quite excited to undergo teaching practicum in school. Starting February 2012, I’ll be heading to school every morning for 3 months. When am thinking about it, I can still feel the butterflies in my stomach: p Kelakar la, coz I’ve been in the industry for more than 8 years. I guess, its scary sebab there will be lecturer who going to observe while I teaching later in school la kan…

So, today in class am suppose to have my 1^st micro teaching. It carries 30 marks u. I’d prepare everything. The contents, the BBM, I made mind mapping sheet for the students plus little2 thing (that’s means effort okay) for the teaching today. My part was the last step where I needed to do pengukuhan, Q&A with students as well to conclude lesson of the day. Hehe, excited kan…

But u guys know, I didn’t able to do my part. The lecturer said our 40 minutes were done! None of my group member noticed when we started the teaching. And I didn’t do my part. Sad kan… yeah a bit. Am quite frustrated because I have planned and did everything.

In the old days, am sure I’ll be blaming, blaming and blaming everything around me. Am gonna be frustrated, irritated, disturbed and really2 upset. Tapi kan… today, it not really bothered me. While my other 2 group members were busy buat post mortem where they did wrong, I kept advising them, that was really something for us to just…. Learned! I told them it is better to make all the mistakes now rather than doing them in school. My friend smsed me after class, purposely to say sorry about today’s incident. How sweet kan :).

Moral of the story, I have changed! Suke tak? I suke sangat! It’s not easy to change tau n am happy because it is a good one. Now that I agree that education is meant to change things from bad to good, -ve to +ve.

Guys out there, let’s change for the better!!

Mode ~ Bernafas dengan tenang & bermimpi yg indah2!